Could your failure to activate personal success be linked to self-sabotage? This isnt the type of sabotage that you would normally suspect or even give time to? What I am talking about is a part of your unconscious called the adaptive unconscious. This part of your mind is trained to predict and then avoid pain, displeasure or stress.
The adaptive unconscious doesnt set out to cause you to fail. It is working along a complex blueprint that has been developing since the moment you were born and in many cases it has been proven even in the womb.
This part of your mind doesnt just look at the benefits of a current action. It takes into account how this thought or this action is going to play into your total psychology.
There is something that we call ecology. In the same way in nature there are ecological consequences to building a factory; you have to make sure that you dont damage the water table or perhaps cause air pollution. Even though the factory would create jobs and is good for the economy the factory might be bad for the ecology. In that cause the factory might not be built.
Within our mind we also have ecology. Believe or not at this moment...